Last week as I mentioned I really hit rock bottom in my frustration of not losing weight. I feel like I tried something new every week and my thoughts were so absorbed with food and what I needed to do to lose weight that I actually no longer trusted myself to even make the right call when it came to food and as a result I was actually gaining weight. I also had a body scan taken at work. This was the third scan I had over the last year when I was determined to lose weight. In this scan I had actually gained even more weight than when I started and my body fat percentage had increased to 42% which is horrendous! That’s true obesity and while I don’t feel that unhealthy the results speak for themselves and something has to change!
Through this massive reality check I finally admitted I couldn’t do this alone and actually needed the support and guidance of a professional eating plan to at least kick start the weight loss and reset my relationship with food and get my fat percentage down! My local Jenny Craig didn’t have any appointments on the Saturday morning, but hearing my pain and frustration they found a way I could just pick up the food and then start appointments the following week. (I went with Jenny Craig as I had success with their plan 6 years ago when going through a very hard time in my life and they are the only meal provided plan that have a vegetarian program and the personal coach).
On the drive to the centre I was quite emotional. One part of me was excited that I would finally start to see progress and the weight that has been holding me back would be gone, and another part of me was scared and proud for finally asking for help. A lot of self reflection to get to the point where I could admit I can’t do it alone and a lot of disappointment in myself that I needed help. I tried to stay positive and thought I’d be in and out in 5 minutes.
The ladies who worked in the centre were amazing. They took my weight (but asked first if I wanted to which I thought was lovely), they didn’t judge, just quietly wrote it down on my sheet with my height. It was 71.5kg! I am only 5’2 so that’s a lot, but I have to start somewhere. They then proceeded to get my food and talked me through the program. The woman who is going to be my coach then took the time to really talk me through it and get to know me, Even though they didn’t have an appointment time for me, I feel like I got one anyway and they were all so supportive and kind. I left feeling really supported, but really emotional and I broke down on my way home. I think the realisation of what a big step this was and that there are kind supportive people out there, meaning I really don’t need to do it alone (which has been my go to for so much of my life), and I will succeed!
The best piece of advice my new coach gave me was to not eat the meals in their packaging, but to instead plate them up with the vegetables or anything else that goes with the meal to start getting a better association with portion sizes – fantastic advice I would never have thought of. It also makes the meal more enjoyable as you don’t feel like you are eating diet food, it’s just a nice meal you prepared.
So today is day 6! So far the food has been great, surprisingly tasty, and things I really love to eat but have avoided for so long as I have been trying to “be good” (which hasn’t paid off). As a result I am looking forward to each meal and I’m already starting to get a better idea of portion sizes. I had one wine on Monday with work, but left out my second dairy portion that day to balance it out. And for me to only have one wine is a real achievement. Otherwise I have stuck to the meals 100%, added in all my additional veggies, fruit and dairy and have stuck to water and tea for drinks.
I went on two walks with friends on Sunday, went to a yoga class on Monday, did an interval run and ab circuit yesterday and walked home from work Monday and Tuesday night (approximately 4.5km each time), so hopefully my first week will show some good results. I have an all day course tomorrow which i will take my food for, then dinner and a show that night which will be my first challenge as this would normally involve a lot of alcohol and a fancy dinner so I will have to make good choices.
Fingers crossed for a good result for my first week. First goal – GET OUT OF THE 70’s!!!